why don’t I want to do my work?
why do I want to do anything and everything else?
I hate how white washed that my entire life has been, how this blog reflects that, and how I never even thought that it was a problem. It wasn’t until this very evening when I was looking at images of my favorite actors that I noticed they are all white. There are no people of color in my list of faves… I feel like such a fuck bc this small and stupid facet of my life reflects my actual interactions with human beings… besides peers in class I’m never around people of color and it offends me that I am so close minded that I unconsciously make friends with white people… Like how fucking boring and ill-informed have I been in making decisions about people in my life. Also no one I work with is a person of color. My hometown is all white people… it is no wonder that I am conditioned this way, but it offends me all the same, I am going to work to become active in stopping this oppression of myself and others.
Also the room at my gma’s is cold so I wont have any trouble with getting too hot in the middle of the night like at purchase… and I wont have to worry about getting too cold, well, bc I have an electric blanket. My life is so on point rn and all that it took was driving two hours north from my college to my hometown, who’da thunk it